During the entire production time I felt like I am not doing enough, I wasn't sleeping, I was eating badly. All my life was pretty much concentrated around the project. I was always, constantly working. The day when I had an anxiety attack followed by a small breakdown, I realised that I am a workaholic.

But I still felt that I wan't good enough. Right until I heard from my teammates that I have done well. And until my team had a chance to impress Foundation students to the point, where we made our course leader proud. That's where I felt that all the tension went off my chest and I could breathe. I put my health and time in this project and for the first time in my life I actually feel like I have accomplished something.




1) I managed to keep all paperwork in one place. I have lost nothing.
2) I was able to actually find compromises. In the past I couldn't do it. If something wasn't going my way, I would've been annoyed and couldn't do anything. This time I actually wan't that bad.
3) Surviving stress. Yes it was very difficult, sometimes I felt like giving up, sometimes I just wanted to not show up on set during filming, but I survived.

There still a lot to learn, but I think this time I am actually kinda proud of myself.
But I also need to shout our Preston and Tilly, I wouldn't have been able to do all of this without them. I think we've made a great team.

~ M.G.